Sunday, July 17, 2005
A thank You note.
God,
I am so thankful to You for creating me to be a girl, a daughter, a sister, a friend, a confider, a sheep, a shepherd, a soundman, and of all, a blessing.
I enjoy being a girl because I can very much relate to the same gender of their ups and downs. Providing a listening ear for them to share and to rant, giving a shoulder for them to cry on and assuring them that they're not alone with my presence.
I enjoy being a daughter because I have You, my Father in Heaven, always looking out to my needs, guiding me by the green pasture and to pick me up when I stumbled and have fallen. When it comes to You, a mixture of feeling just stir in me simply because I do not know where to start to share and I definitely do not know how to express them out in words. But God, You know, they're all remembered. And when it comes to my earthly Father, I feel a security. He is the hero I know ever since I was born. He loves me and provides me with the best of his ability, guiding me along this road of life I am journeying on and loving me even at times I am nortorious. All this also keeps me standing in awe of You, Dad.
I enjoy being a sister, may it be of the same blood or in Christ. Thank You for creating me to be a blessing to the younger ones whom I can pick up and impart, to share of my past struggles that will serve as an advice to them and the wanting in me to protect them from any hurts and harm.
I enjoy being a friend, a confider, a sheep and a shepherd because I feel privilege to listen to the lives of theirs; to have the honour to enter their lives. Lord, thank You for creating my heart to be big - that I may contain them in me and to love them though sometimes it got difficult. I'm thankful that I may be a healer to their broken hearts, broken souls and to pull them back when they're at their edge of giving up on any areas in them. But Lord, though sometimes I have people who comes up to me telling me that I love my sheep a lot, I do not think the same. In fact, I feel that my love for them isn't enough, same for my shepherd.
I enjoy being a soundman because I remember what Royston once told me - the best thing is when you worked so hard, at least we know it's not like cca, but we rest assured many lives have been touched through our ministry. This is what keeps me going when I'm in down times in my ministry, when I feel stagnant. It's how amazing I have come so far in this ministry.
And Lord, I'm so thankful that I love people differently. There's this kind of silent love in me that wants to protect people I know, may it be subtlely or blatantly. I do what I think I deem is right, what I deem will make the person feel loved and what I deem will pick the person up. Comments about me of liking Clarence, I no longer care. Because I know what my feelings are - to care for him as a friend, and not an admirer. There are just different things in each and every of the people around me I look out for. Because I know that as I pour out my love for them, You will infuse more into me.
As the journey gets tougher and more tiring, Lord I pray, that the Love You have infused in me never to die down but to be overflowing, because all I need in life is Your unfailing Love.
maoed.]
at 11:03 AM
